“ ‘Sometimes it’s because I feel so awful, or ashamed, and I need to make physical what I feel,’ he began, and glanced at me before looking down again. ‘And sometimes it’s because I feel so many things and I need to feel nothing at all- it helps clear them away. And sometimes it’s because I feel happy, and I have to remind myself that I shouldn’t.’ “
A Little Life, Hanya Yanagihara
— Donte Collins
Am I sad because I’m not going anywhere in life or am I not going anywhere in life because I’m sad?
There’s so many parts of this book that destroyed me but this is one of them.
Book ending: so they might be dead probably but who knows? Not I.
Me: *grossly sobbing*
Am I sad because I’m not going anywhere in life or am I not going anywhere in life because I’m sad?
Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life
Who are you?
I’m Willem Ragnarsson, and I will never let you go.
“Limes,” says Jude, looking up at him and shielding his eyes against the sun.
“Right, he says, and bends down, takes Jude’s sunglasses off him, kisses him on his eyelids, and replaces his glasses. Summer, JB has always said, is Jude’s season: his skin darkens and his hair lightens to almost the same shade, making his eyes turn an unnatural green, and Willem has to keep himself from touching him too much. “I’ll be back in a little while.”
A Little Life - Hanya Yanagihara
Halloween with tate langdon …
Reach Out, 2017
It Kills Me To Have To Be Alive by The Smith Street Band
The Smith Street Band: I can’t feel my face
It took years to figure out everyone else had shit on their minds, and the darkness that lives inside of me looks exactly like you sometimes














